Yay! Games! Fun! Adventure!
Nick, Stephen Hare and JEREMY came over unexpectedly. Tina and I were watching Psych, I was blogging about the weekend and they just show up. It was the greatest surprise ever! We played Munchkin. Watched True Blood. Watched some random comedy stuff and then watched Benjamin Button. All in all it was a fun Sunday evening.
FHE was lame but I got to say hey to them all there too. I also got to see Emily and we chatted and had a good time as well.
Life is good with friends like these. It's also good to get a chance to see people you haven't seen in forever.
People like Kirsten, who stopped by to pick up her doggie I had been watching for the weekend. Actually my mom did more of the dog sitting since I have such a crazy life style...=P It was so great to see her and chat for a bit, we plan to hang out some time soon and play a boardgame, puzzle, card game or watch a movie marathon or something. She is the best!!!!!!!
15 June 2009
14 June 2009
22 Things I knew, learned and experianced
1. Running errands with Kelley and helping her mom out who just got out of surgery for her wrist and arm. She is in a lot of pain but will hopefully be better off because of it. Team work and companionship, it was nice to be together.
2. Sodoku is the devil incarnate. Life was good and we were all hanging out, tina, kelley and I, and then I saw a game that I was invited to. I got on and it was horrible. I couldn't find anything and I refused help and ruined the fun of hanging out. That is why I prefer to avoid applications.
3. All dressed up and no place to go. Since I ruined our evening, or at least put a sad close to what would have already been the end of the evening. Tina and I were in the car. Tina really wanted to go out and have fun. I wanted to as well but was exhausted from not having much sleep for the week. We texted and called people but no one was available. So of course we went to Tina's house played skippo and watched Psych. Fun but not going to the club like Tina had been hoping. I'll try to be more prepared for the next weekend, it's just been a while since we've been in a "let's go do something fun mood".
4. Oh what a beautiful morning. Well maybe not quite beautiful, it was more overcast and ordinary. We were preparing to leave for a fun bbq and party but then got called to clean house. There were supposed to be some family/friends coming to visit Tina's parents. Mopping, vacuuming and other such. (Tina was working and I was attempting to watch Psych with the sounds of vacuum in the background. She was soooo inconsiderate while I was lazily waiting for Tina to finish.) I would like to say that I did shake out the carpets in the backyard. Then buying plastic for the tablecloth and going to Sally's Beauty Shop for the first time.
5. Money, money, everywhere...but not in my pocket. So I saw the amazing wax kit that Tina has (slightly smaller kit) that was an amazing price. If I had the money it would have been worth it. I'll say that once you wax you never want to shave again....it's just not worth it.
6. Out on the road. Gathering the address, maps, gps and getting to Amy's house (Tina's sister). We gather Marianne, Xaden and the van. The cool thing about the van is the hidy hole in the middle. A place to keep belongings (or dead bodies...dum dum dum....) It made the ride more enjoyable to have leg room and imaginative thoughts of what to do with a hidy hole in the center of a van.
7. On the road again. First we stop to pick up Ben, then we can all be ready to leave....except, there was a pit stop. Safeway! Buy some sandwiches and drinks. ummm.....drinks? How frustrating it is to find that every single cooler in the store is out of water. The clerks and such said that they haven't restocked yet. Then we try to find Funyan's. What store decides to no longer sell funyans. Oh, wait! There was a large bag of flaming hot funyans. No can do, but wait again. A value bag that contains funyans and fire hot cheetos. Sigh, can't win 'em all.
8. Asian or white. So according to Ben's hypothosis there is something about Asian's and Funyuns and Toyota's. He also thinks there is something about white's and boats, and RV's. My guess on the funyuns is that they are similar to and have a similar consistancy to some other foods that asians eat all the time. That is just my guess, as to the boats, I got nothing. So the question is...I love Funyuns and Toyota is my fav car of choice. I also love all phillipino foods I've tried, which is unusual for a white person. So what am I?
9. And so we arrive. I was worried about being an outcast. I'm not one of the Demesa girls and so only knew the twins through Tina. I did hang out with them but it was a long time ago. I entered a little self conscious. I smiled and hung back. After a few hours I realized that it was the same. We are friends and still friends. I'm so glad I got to see David and Daniel again.
10. A fish out of water. I have been going insane. All this year I have been wanting to swim since march when we had that first heat wave. I guess that's not all this year but whatever. That was the same time I decided it would be a good idea to cut half my hair off. Yes, I did do it myself and yes, it did look horrible. I think that the hairdo is a bit better now. So, as most people know, I don't do well with heat. Cutting off my hair is a drastic measure when I start to go crazy with delirium and heat. Because of the heat I have been yearning for a dip in the pool, lucky for me there happened to be a pool at the party. The sad thing would be that the one day I have access to a pool is the same day the sun decides to not be as hot and the same day that I am visiting friends I haven't seen in years. But a pool.......
11. A bruise, a crack, a break....breaking down. I couldn't take it anymore, staring at the clear crisp water and finally Tina was up for it. We just had to get in. We changed and jumped in full force. Ice water brushed over us like a frozen wave. We swam, shivered, chatted, twirled, relaxed and flipped our way to euphoric peace. Ah the joys of the water.
12. Then came the kids. Alex, this cute little 7 year old blond joined our party. She was fun and loved to swim as well. Xaden joined as well. Tina held Xaden and I spent time with Alex. We all had fun playing, splashing and laughing. Alex clung like a shivery little cat. She would not let me go. I told her that we needed to get out of the water, it's pretty cold. She told me that it wasn't cold hugging me. I must be pretty warm blooded.
13. Leaving the drenched paradise, Alex continued to cling to me. I carried her to a chair, sat down and had someone bring me a towel. She warmed up pretty quick as we cuddled. Then I tried to get up and change out of my wet suit but Alex continued to follow me and would not let me do anything. Instead we ended up playing catch with a tiny blow up ball she called her beach ball. We played a while until I was released to change back into my jeans and t-shirt.
14. While sitting around and chatting I relearned something I knew when Xaden was born. His name is Xaden Ray. put it together and it's X-Ray. How cute.
15. I started to get a migraine, what do I do? I didn't want to ruin the evening and leave. I didn't want to sleep and miss hang out time. So, I did the next best thing, I drank a Pepsi. I know, I don't really like it but it did the trick. It kept my migraine at bay for the entire evening and it didn't hit until we crashed at Tina's. How blessed was that?
16. We finally meet. I met David's boyfriend, Cory and Danial's boyfriend, Maurice. They are fun, good looking, guys.
17. Mooch. A fun dice game where you try to get to 10,000 points, mooch off of other's points and win the money. You try to get 3 of a kind for that many hundred points, example 3 two's would be 200 points. Ones are worth one hundred and fives are worth fifty. You roll and save and roll remaining dice as long as each roll adds to your points. You can stop any time to keep the points or keep going. If you keep going and a roll does not give you any points, then you lose it all. It is so fun to play with a large group of people.
18. Kung Fu distraction. While playing Mooch, Kung Fu Panda and the cartoon furious five played. One of my favorite movies and the cartoon was one I had never seen before. It was a distraction but fun to enjoy at the same time.
19. Marcus! After fun and games the night was still young. We wanted some one on one time without the huge group of family, friends and acquaintances and whoever. A nice small group of friends just kicking it at a nice apartment. Oh and did I mention guitar hero and domino's? Yea, it was great.
20. One thing I've known but still constantly surprises me is that I can be in a room filled with the smoke of 420 but if I am in a large space with only one cigarette my lungs close up. Hmmm...how strange is that.
21. Body Art: Cory, David's boyfriend, has a tattoo all along both arms and his chest and stomach. It's not some shoddy, half done tattoo's. No. This is a work of art. It looks like a masterpiece painting rolled out. He has a phoenix on his stomach with the feathers up and around. Amazing. I felt jealous.
22. Driving. So I enjoyed being the driver for the trip back. I loved the peace of the early morning night, the empty road and the exhausted unconscious people in the car. The only part was not becoming a unconscious person myself. Well I was awake and we got home alive and safe. What an awesome weekend. So awesome Tina and I didn't get up till close to 11am, now that is insane.
2. Sodoku is the devil incarnate. Life was good and we were all hanging out, tina, kelley and I, and then I saw a game that I was invited to. I got on and it was horrible. I couldn't find anything and I refused help and ruined the fun of hanging out. That is why I prefer to avoid applications.
3. All dressed up and no place to go. Since I ruined our evening, or at least put a sad close to what would have already been the end of the evening. Tina and I were in the car. Tina really wanted to go out and have fun. I wanted to as well but was exhausted from not having much sleep for the week. We texted and called people but no one was available. So of course we went to Tina's house played skippo and watched Psych. Fun but not going to the club like Tina had been hoping. I'll try to be more prepared for the next weekend, it's just been a while since we've been in a "let's go do something fun mood".
4. Oh what a beautiful morning. Well maybe not quite beautiful, it was more overcast and ordinary. We were preparing to leave for a fun bbq and party but then got called to clean house. There were supposed to be some family/friends coming to visit Tina's parents. Mopping, vacuuming and other such. (Tina was working and I was attempting to watch Psych with the sounds of vacuum in the background. She was soooo inconsiderate while I was lazily waiting for Tina to finish.) I would like to say that I did shake out the carpets in the backyard. Then buying plastic for the tablecloth and going to Sally's Beauty Shop for the first time.
5. Money, money, everywhere...but not in my pocket. So I saw the amazing wax kit that Tina has (slightly smaller kit) that was an amazing price. If I had the money it would have been worth it. I'll say that once you wax you never want to shave again....it's just not worth it.
6. Out on the road. Gathering the address, maps, gps and getting to Amy's house (Tina's sister). We gather Marianne, Xaden and the van. The cool thing about the van is the hidy hole in the middle. A place to keep belongings (or dead bodies...dum dum dum....) It made the ride more enjoyable to have leg room and imaginative thoughts of what to do with a hidy hole in the center of a van.
7. On the road again. First we stop to pick up Ben, then we can all be ready to leave....except, there was a pit stop. Safeway! Buy some sandwiches and drinks. ummm.....drinks? How frustrating it is to find that every single cooler in the store is out of water. The clerks and such said that they haven't restocked yet. Then we try to find Funyan's. What store decides to no longer sell funyans. Oh, wait! There was a large bag of flaming hot funyans. No can do, but wait again. A value bag that contains funyans and fire hot cheetos. Sigh, can't win 'em all.
8. Asian or white. So according to Ben's hypothosis there is something about Asian's and Funyuns and Toyota's. He also thinks there is something about white's and boats, and RV's. My guess on the funyuns is that they are similar to and have a similar consistancy to some other foods that asians eat all the time. That is just my guess, as to the boats, I got nothing. So the question is...I love Funyuns and Toyota is my fav car of choice. I also love all phillipino foods I've tried, which is unusual for a white person. So what am I?
9. And so we arrive. I was worried about being an outcast. I'm not one of the Demesa girls and so only knew the twins through Tina. I did hang out with them but it was a long time ago. I entered a little self conscious. I smiled and hung back. After a few hours I realized that it was the same. We are friends and still friends. I'm so glad I got to see David and Daniel again.
10. A fish out of water. I have been going insane. All this year I have been wanting to swim since march when we had that first heat wave. I guess that's not all this year but whatever. That was the same time I decided it would be a good idea to cut half my hair off. Yes, I did do it myself and yes, it did look horrible. I think that the hairdo is a bit better now. So, as most people know, I don't do well with heat. Cutting off my hair is a drastic measure when I start to go crazy with delirium and heat. Because of the heat I have been yearning for a dip in the pool, lucky for me there happened to be a pool at the party. The sad thing would be that the one day I have access to a pool is the same day the sun decides to not be as hot and the same day that I am visiting friends I haven't seen in years. But a pool.......
11. A bruise, a crack, a break....breaking down. I couldn't take it anymore, staring at the clear crisp water and finally Tina was up for it. We just had to get in. We changed and jumped in full force. Ice water brushed over us like a frozen wave. We swam, shivered, chatted, twirled, relaxed and flipped our way to euphoric peace. Ah the joys of the water.
12. Then came the kids. Alex, this cute little 7 year old blond joined our party. She was fun and loved to swim as well. Xaden joined as well. Tina held Xaden and I spent time with Alex. We all had fun playing, splashing and laughing. Alex clung like a shivery little cat. She would not let me go. I told her that we needed to get out of the water, it's pretty cold. She told me that it wasn't cold hugging me. I must be pretty warm blooded.
13. Leaving the drenched paradise, Alex continued to cling to me. I carried her to a chair, sat down and had someone bring me a towel. She warmed up pretty quick as we cuddled. Then I tried to get up and change out of my wet suit but Alex continued to follow me and would not let me do anything. Instead we ended up playing catch with a tiny blow up ball she called her beach ball. We played a while until I was released to change back into my jeans and t-shirt.
14. While sitting around and chatting I relearned something I knew when Xaden was born. His name is Xaden Ray. put it together and it's X-Ray. How cute.
15. I started to get a migraine, what do I do? I didn't want to ruin the evening and leave. I didn't want to sleep and miss hang out time. So, I did the next best thing, I drank a Pepsi. I know, I don't really like it but it did the trick. It kept my migraine at bay for the entire evening and it didn't hit until we crashed at Tina's. How blessed was that?
16. We finally meet. I met David's boyfriend, Cory and Danial's boyfriend, Maurice. They are fun, good looking, guys.
17. Mooch. A fun dice game where you try to get to 10,000 points, mooch off of other's points and win the money. You try to get 3 of a kind for that many hundred points, example 3 two's would be 200 points. Ones are worth one hundred and fives are worth fifty. You roll and save and roll remaining dice as long as each roll adds to your points. You can stop any time to keep the points or keep going. If you keep going and a roll does not give you any points, then you lose it all. It is so fun to play with a large group of people.
18. Kung Fu distraction. While playing Mooch, Kung Fu Panda and the cartoon furious five played. One of my favorite movies and the cartoon was one I had never seen before. It was a distraction but fun to enjoy at the same time.
19. Marcus! After fun and games the night was still young. We wanted some one on one time without the huge group of family, friends and acquaintances and whoever. A nice small group of friends just kicking it at a nice apartment. Oh and did I mention guitar hero and domino's? Yea, it was great.
20. One thing I've known but still constantly surprises me is that I can be in a room filled with the smoke of 420 but if I am in a large space with only one cigarette my lungs close up. Hmmm...how strange is that.
21. Body Art: Cory, David's boyfriend, has a tattoo all along both arms and his chest and stomach. It's not some shoddy, half done tattoo's. No. This is a work of art. It looks like a masterpiece painting rolled out. He has a phoenix on his stomach with the feathers up and around. Amazing. I felt jealous.
22. Driving. So I enjoyed being the driver for the trip back. I loved the peace of the early morning night, the empty road and the exhausted unconscious people in the car. The only part was not becoming a unconscious person myself. Well I was awake and we got home alive and safe. What an awesome weekend. So awesome Tina and I didn't get up till close to 11am, now that is insane.
10 June 2009
I believe I can...draw
It's amazing! I can't believe I never had this revelation before. Not only can I write, but I can draw. Now hold on a second....it's not prize winning pieces or anything, at least not yet. I also can not draw realistically, but that is ok because I have a unique style. So I practiced in my art 1 class and strove for an A. All I got out of all that hard work was a pat on the head and a B. Or is that all??????
Of course not, I gained confidence. I gained a new view on the world. I look at things and envision their beauty in many ways besides just the outward appearance or just the appearance we have been raised to admire. I'm talking about an inner beauty and story to every thing living and non, animate and inanimate.
Then I took it a step further. I have this bag I bought from fanime con. It's the most amazing bag ever. On the bag is a picture of "Black Cat" from the anime series. I have been admiring the picture and wanting to give it a try. Well just a few days ago I broke down and gave it a shot. It took me an hour and a half but I did it and I did a pretty good job. The next day I sketched Jimmy Kudo's head from "Case Closed" (another anime series). That only took me 20 min or less and also turned out really well.
I would like to say that it was the confidence of the art class and my new found self that brought me to this point. Maybe that is part of it, but, it was the dream. What dream? you may ask. There is no dream like this in your dream blog. No, no there is not. This wasn't a full on dream that could easily be recorded in a story of insanity and confusion. No, this was just an image.
I had a dream, one that I failed to record and soon forgot. At the end of the dream was Jad's face. He was looking up, he was in anime form. There were sparkles in his eyes and a glow about his face. The hair was to die for gorgeous. The face turned profile and gazed up at the sky. Where the diamond on his forehead was a horn shimmered and began to be apparent. Then the image changed to (Toby? I haven't gotten the name yet for Jad's eldest son who inherits his powers when he's dead.) That's all I remember.
I wonder if this particular story would be better told as a manga? I don't know but it will certainly inspire me to start writing again, at least I hope so. I would love to get back into my story writing and maybe actually publish something this time. We shall see, I keep talking big but never follow through. Only time will tell.
No matter what I will try to stop getting down on myself. I will do my best to gain confidence and self esteem. I wish to be the happy, beautiful and amazing person I have created in my story. To be "Marie" or "Blade Dragon", even though the story itself is not real. ...!!!!
Of course not, I gained confidence. I gained a new view on the world. I look at things and envision their beauty in many ways besides just the outward appearance or just the appearance we have been raised to admire. I'm talking about an inner beauty and story to every thing living and non, animate and inanimate.
Then I took it a step further. I have this bag I bought from fanime con. It's the most amazing bag ever. On the bag is a picture of "Black Cat" from the anime series. I have been admiring the picture and wanting to give it a try. Well just a few days ago I broke down and gave it a shot. It took me an hour and a half but I did it and I did a pretty good job. The next day I sketched Jimmy Kudo's head from "Case Closed" (another anime series). That only took me 20 min or less and also turned out really well.
I would like to say that it was the confidence of the art class and my new found self that brought me to this point. Maybe that is part of it, but, it was the dream. What dream? you may ask. There is no dream like this in your dream blog. No, no there is not. This wasn't a full on dream that could easily be recorded in a story of insanity and confusion. No, this was just an image.
I had a dream, one that I failed to record and soon forgot. At the end of the dream was Jad's face. He was looking up, he was in anime form. There were sparkles in his eyes and a glow about his face. The hair was to die for gorgeous. The face turned profile and gazed up at the sky. Where the diamond on his forehead was a horn shimmered and began to be apparent. Then the image changed to (Toby? I haven't gotten the name yet for Jad's eldest son who inherits his powers when he's dead.) That's all I remember.
I wonder if this particular story would be better told as a manga? I don't know but it will certainly inspire me to start writing again, at least I hope so. I would love to get back into my story writing and maybe actually publish something this time. We shall see, I keep talking big but never follow through. Only time will tell.
No matter what I will try to stop getting down on myself. I will do my best to gain confidence and self esteem. I wish to be the happy, beautiful and amazing person I have created in my story. To be "Marie" or "Blade Dragon", even though the story itself is not real. ...!!!!
09 June 2009
A place for me and only me
Piece of mind, peace of heart. So much happens and yet so little does. I feel at loss, lost in the woods. I swim the ocean but there is no air. The pain inside, it comes and goes. I blame you, I blame me, I blame no one, for no one is to blame. Sadness, sometimes. Happiness, sometimes. Bitterness, maybe a little but it hides in the ground near the core of the earth. Pain, sometimes. Tears, sometimes. Freedom, definitely for without our emotions there is no true freedom. I am alone, I am surrounded. Life surprises, life is predicted. You bring light. You bring dark. I think of you often and not at all. I want my spirit to fly alone and free. I want my spirit to fly with him, but he doesn't exist. It's to late for him to exist. My world it crumbles, piece by piece. I lived there for so long, it has become me. My flesh it tears, wounds open, blood leaks out. I cry inside. I cry for my life, for my death, for my world that will never be again. It's too late now, too late to come here. It's too late to beg, to bring me home. I have no home. My mind is an empty shell filled with falsehoods and fantasies that tumble into space. I can start again. I can join your world, the world I had forsaken all those years ago. I can live as you live, but in the end it is still a fantasy. There is no truth, there is no peace, there is only today. There is only this time, beyond that is infinity. A world unknown, a new place to explore. I long for the new world, free from reality, free from pain and disability. I long for a place to belong, to be included, to be wanted. Now I find that it may exist. You have shown me a new light. A door has been opened, a door that shows possibilities. Now I venture out into the great unknown to find if this is really a place for me, a place like the one I left behind only real.
02 June 2009
Plans
Yea, so things have been crazy and I've planned on posting. I really have. I just get busy and well......there really is no excuse. I love to write, but I am not good with deadlines or journalism type stuff. I do stories, I make up things. I do not sit around and pratter on about myself and my life for posts on end. Ok, so I do sometimes, because people tell me that they read them and because it is important to keep some type of a journal on a regular basis. Although I think that whole journal thing is supposed to be a place to keep spiritual experiances and private stuff as well, which you can't really put online. Well, you could but I think that would ruin the whole idea.
Anyways, life is busy, finals are over, fanime was fun and now it is time to figure what to do with my life. I need to get some more picures to post up so that my blog is not just filled with boring words all the time.
Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Now I can breath, even though I don't know my grades yet.
I lost my job. Yea, I know, but it's all good. I don't have a car for one thing and I think this was going to end up happening in the long run anyways. Situations just sped up the process. I think it's for the best because working as a Nanny was a step backword on my progression ladder. I can still see the kids and plan to give them their gifts tomorrow! I'll see if I can borrow Steven II's camera for that, it would be the best to have the pics as memories. I'm glad things worked out for the best and that no relationships were ruined in the process.
I have a lot of work to do in my room and in my life, so much cleaning. Ack!! I plan on getting rid of a lot of useless things as well, that would help unclutter my life, I just own too much stuff and it suffocates me mentally, spiritually and physically. Things are just things, I just need useful stuff and books and sewing, clothes to wear and important documents kept safe and boardgames and my medacine.....whew even with the needs that is a lot of stuff......aaaaaccccckkkkk!!!!!!!!
Anyways, life is busy, finals are over, fanime was fun and now it is time to figure what to do with my life. I need to get some more picures to post up so that my blog is not just filled with boring words all the time.
Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Finals are over!!!!!! Now I can breath, even though I don't know my grades yet.
I lost my job. Yea, I know, but it's all good. I don't have a car for one thing and I think this was going to end up happening in the long run anyways. Situations just sped up the process. I think it's for the best because working as a Nanny was a step backword on my progression ladder. I can still see the kids and plan to give them their gifts tomorrow! I'll see if I can borrow Steven II's camera for that, it would be the best to have the pics as memories. I'm glad things worked out for the best and that no relationships were ruined in the process.
I have a lot of work to do in my room and in my life, so much cleaning. Ack!! I plan on getting rid of a lot of useless things as well, that would help unclutter my life, I just own too much stuff and it suffocates me mentally, spiritually and physically. Things are just things, I just need useful stuff and books and sewing, clothes to wear and important documents kept safe and boardgames and my medacine.....whew even with the needs that is a lot of stuff......aaaaaccccckkkkk!!!!!!!!
08 May 2009
This week in may
Well I can finally breath. It's been a while, I'd almost forgotten what it felt like. Life is good! The X-Men movie was awesome. Go Wolverine!!!!!
The other day I got to go with my brother to the court house in Porterville. It was awesome. We had a wonderful road trip, too bad I had a test that evening, otherwise we could have had the entire day. I love my brother so very much.
I drew a picture of a phoenix with a tear and a hand. Now I have to come up with a story for it....hmmmm
I had a hard time at class yesterday and tuesday. I think Tuesday was worse though. We are learning about Hate Crimes and it brought up a lot of memories. Memories I didn't even know I had and I just started crying. How could people be so cruel to anyone, especially for no reason at all. Why do people hate others who are different or who look different or who have a different life style. I will never understand that, never.
The other day I got to go with my brother to the court house in Porterville. It was awesome. We had a wonderful road trip, too bad I had a test that evening, otherwise we could have had the entire day. I love my brother so very much.
I drew a picture of a phoenix with a tear and a hand. Now I have to come up with a story for it....hmmmm
I had a hard time at class yesterday and tuesday. I think Tuesday was worse though. We are learning about Hate Crimes and it brought up a lot of memories. Memories I didn't even know I had and I just started crying. How could people be so cruel to anyone, especially for no reason at all. Why do people hate others who are different or who look different or who have a different life style. I will never understand that, never.
03 May 2009
Duh! Should of had a blessing!
So things are getting much better. I finally got a blessing and I feel a whole lot better. I have a job every Monday watching 2 adorable children. School is coming down to the wire with lots of work and assignments. I have missed too many classes for illness whether mental or physical and hope I still pass all of the classes. I have also lost the part of me that writes and creates and I think it is breaking me apart. The good thing is I am now finding that part of me again. The downside to all of that is that I will have to limit my social excursions. That is fine, being social is fine but it is exhausting and it's good to have time to yourself as well. This is more just a ramble post from a rambling mind that has been sick and out of commission for over 5 days. I better stop rambling and get my class work done haha.....what an interesting life. It is better to live your life then to die and wish you had another shot. Dreams and wishes are just that, it is actions that lead to true memories.
Also.......
"SOME people have decided that it would be a great idea to post depressing posts. Then SOME people think it's a great idea to watch depressing shows. ACK! When one is sick the only thing that makes them get better is positive and funny things. Comedy is the greatest medacine. I need to find some funny joke or something to post so that I wont add to the depressing posts!"
Also.......
"SOME people have decided that it would be a great idea to post depressing posts. Then SOME people think it's a great idea to watch depressing shows. ACK! When one is sick the only thing that makes them get better is positive and funny things. Comedy is the greatest medacine. I need to find some funny joke or something to post so that I wont add to the depressing posts!"
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